When the photos came through I held my breath. I feel so good in my body these days, happy with how I look most of the time. But being photographed? That was going to be a whole new layer of acceptance. Kind of like wearing a bikini.
Being seen is vulnerable.
Every single client I have ever photographed tells me the same thing: “I really don’t like getting my photo taken… “ And I always reply, “You and me both! Nobody likes this! But I promise to make it fun.”
Being on the other side of the camera, I had immediate compassion for my clients. Holy moly. Being seen can feel so scary! I noticed how I wanted to be a good client, how I wanted them to like me, how I was hoping they thought I was beautiful. I noticed the moments I was putting on a show and the times when I just felt like myself. I noticed what helped me get back in my skin + back in my body.
Movement is key.
If I sat in a pose too long I started to feel frozen, stiff and unsure. I think that’s why the above photo worked so well – I was whipping my hair back and forth which was making me giggle. And there you go – something real and true.
I suppose that’s what I’m always searching for in my writing, in my photography and in my relationships. I’m feeling my way in the dark for something true.
What are the words that say it best?
What honors the experience I am actually having in the world?
What friends make me feel most like myself?
What makes me feel aligned with my spirit?
Where is the resonance?
That’s what I’m hungry for these days. And this is where I’m finding it.
Connecting deeply with friends.
Taking photos + capturing the beauty around me.
Riding my bicycle.
Going to my edges + watching myself grow.
If you are also hungry for what’s true, consider working with me soon!
1. Grab one of the last two spots open in the Opening the Creative Channel Retreat in Calistoga, June 8th-12th, 2014.
2. My photography course that’s all about collecting color. Will change the way you see the world! Starts June 2nd, 2014.
3. Hire me for a Bay Area portrait session or a Supersonic Session. (Just email me at email@example.com)