Ben, Matt and Andrea, photo by Jed Olson, Canon Digital Rebel XTi

Every time I begin a new entry lately it begins as an apology…I figure I’ll get it all out in one fell swoop.

I’m sorry I haven’t written anything “of substance” lately.
I’m sorry I am a boring boring person now that doesn’t go anywhere or take photos of anything except her incredibly cute baby.
I’m sorry I don’t keep up the blog like I used to.
I’m sorry I have no edge.
I’m sorry I’m not as inspiring.
I’m sorry I don’t go to Burning Man or any other cool hipster things anymore, especially ones that involve leaving my house.
I’m sorry I don’t respond to comments.
I’m sorry it takes me weeks, sometimes even months, to respond to emails.
I’m sorry there are typos, terrible grammar, and bad writing on this blog.
I’m sorry I haven’t updated the rest of my site in over a year.
I’m sorry I messed up your jewelry order. I have no short term memory anymore.

I have learned to let go of a lot since I had Ben- sleep, a clean house, square meals. I have had to let go of doing things perfectly, or even well. For a perfectionist his has been humbling. I know I often quote SARK, and this is another good one that is on my mind: “Be willing to do things badly.”

Okay, SARK and my dear readers.
I’m officially ready and willing.