Our dance

ballerina girl, Alameda, CA, Canon Digital Rebel XSi

I saw a high school rendition of High School Musical last weekend. With my soft spot for musical theater, I was excited to go. It was under the auspices that I was supporting my friend whose daughter was in the show, but the truth is that my inner twelve year old really, really wanted to be there.

As we waited for the curtain to open, they played old Michael Jackson tunes on the sound system and it moved me more than I anticipated. Crocodile tears poured down my face when I heard the words to Man in the Mirror… the lyrics seeming so poignant suddenly.

I’m Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life,
It’s Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

But it didn’t stop there. I was choked up for the entire two hour show, wiping away my tears as each dance number came to a close and those bright little faces beamed out at the audience. I don’t even have a kid up there! I thought. What are you crying about?

But I was thinking of Ben up there dancing one day, with all that joy and hope in his eyes. I was thinking of myself up there, remembering the musicals I had done in junior high school, and how I practiced so hard each day memorizing the words to every song in the production, not just mine. I remembered when I was Maisie in The Boyfriend and there was a scene where I was supposed to kiss a boy named Noah and how terrified I was, having never kissed a boy in real life before. We never rehearsed the kiss but had sworn to each other and the director that we would do it, no problem, in the actual show. In the end, he left me up there alone for our big moment, having bolted backstage too scared to go through with it. I waited a few heart stopping seconds for him to come back, and then relieved, ran offstage as well.

As I watched, I remembered and felt the excitement and promise that performing at that age felt like–the feeling that you could do anything, that anything you dreamed was possible. I also remembered, like a bolt of lightening, that I was a dancer and a singer, that somewhere deep inside me was still that girl who loved to cartwheel, sashay and sing out loud. Life covers up so much of that essence, that distilled sense of who we are. When I look back, it seems so simple and clear, so easy to see all of her.

And for a moment, while watching High School Musical, I remembered, that she is still me.

P.S. The LUCKY winner of the Orla Kiely bag is: Robyn who said, “It’s so lovely! I would love to fill this bag with all of my little treasures.” You will be getting an email soon from All About Cute! We are all very jealous. 😉

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Hi, I’m Andrea

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  1. cheryn

    i love this post!!
    i just recently cried throughout my 3.5 yo daughter’s 5 minute ballet “recital” , from the second the music began as the lights were dimmed and the cutain closed, to the curtain opening with all the little ballerinas spotlighted in an adorable little pose, till their ending curtsey.
    and i of course want more than anything for her and her little sister to continue to shine and be all that they can be, and they inspire me to do the same!

  2. Braidwood

    Totally. I’m in a FB group called something like “Why can’t LIFE be a musical?”
    I can totally relate. I love moments when I remember who I am. Oh YEAH! THAT’S me!
    By the way, have you ever listened to or read High Tide in Tuscon by Barbara Kingsolver? The essay of that name reminds me of this post in a very tangential way.

  3. Leslie

    oh you just wait until Ben is “up there”…you’re practicing right now LOL…I must think of something very clever to say next give-away….something very clever indeed.

  4. Jaimie

    Just like cheryn mentioned, I always tear up at my nieces’ dance recitals. They are so excited, so innocent and joyful, it is all things good about the world up there on the stage and it makes me well up every time.

  5. marilee pittman

    This was such a beautiful posting. I could just see you as that little girl on stage all by her self, while that chicken fled…

  6. Mariella

    “She is still me” — love that! I can so relate. 🙂 xoxo, ~ M.

  7. celisa

    beautiful crystal clear post andrea 🙂

  8. linda

    wonderful post and wonderful photo.

  9. corin

    I find myself choked up like that at interesting times…when there seems no reason for it and then I realize that the excitement of other people is so easily identified with.

  10. tracey

    sniff sniff.
    ‘Life covers up so much of that essence, that distilled sense of who we are.’
    well said…and what a shame.
    if i could only show the real me more often–the one who spins on the beach on the Oregon coast.

  11. lanec

    I felt this way watching glee about 2 months ago.I was crying so hard. For where I was and where I can hope my children will be.

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