I am sitting in the bathroom with you while you take a bath. It is our daily ritual and one of the most peaceful moments of our day. You in the hot, soapy water, me listening to you sing and talk to your animals. And then the occasional conversation between us:
Me: What was that?
Ben: A bubble fart!
Ben: Now I’m going pee pee.
It’s our one pause of the day, a rare moment when we have nowhere to go and we’re not rushing to the next thing. When will I ever learn to stop rushing to the next thing?
Anyway Ben, you are three years old today. Three years old!! I am amazed by how much you know and how wise you are in the most important ways.
Your train phase is coming to a close and your sea creature phase has begun. More specifically, your whale obsession is in full effect. Every night you point to the creatures in our whale book and tell me the names: That’s a beluga, that’s a great whale (grey whale is the proper name but whatevs!) a pilot, a sperm whale, and that’s a whale shark. You are teaching me so much Ben! I didn’t even know whale sharks existed.
And then there’s the dinosaurs. Dinos! I am beginning to see how being the parent of a boy requires a sophisticated vocabulary of dinosaurs, trucks and wildlife. I am slowly learning my wart hog from my narwhal. My excavator from my digger. Oh, and I can recite all the names of the Thomas trains.
As always Ben, you have it bad for music. What you lack in technical skill you make up for in showmanship. You’ve got that rockstar thing down. It is almost alarming how good you look playing guitar.
Mostly Ben, I want to tell you that for me, there is one moment of the day that is always better than every other. It is the moment when I pick you up from school. You are usually playing outside and I look around the play area for you. When we spot each other, you face lights up in the biggest grin and you shout Mama!! and run full throttle towards me. Then we hug and smoosh our faces together and seriously Ben, it’s like the BEST THING EVER. The very best thing that happens to me all day. What could ever happen that could be better than that?
I just love you so much.
Happy Birthday my beautiful boy.