Finding resilience

Burn mark from cookie sheet on carpet, makes me smile now.

Just stumbled on this post again from a few years ago and it was a great reminder so I thought I would share. Enjoy!

Shame resilience

A little light bulb went off for me recently. A sign of progress, an aha of growth, a rare moment of seeing that all this inner work we do can pay off.

Several months ago, I read Brene Brown’s incredible book, I Thought It Was Just Me (but it isn’t): Telling the Truth About Perfectionism, Inadequacy, and Power. One of the pieces that struck me the most was the distinction between guilt and shame. Said simply, the self-talk for guilt is “I did something bad.” The self-talk for shame is, “I am bad.”

If you tend toward the I am bad, you are probably shame-prone. I definitely fall into that category and after reading her book I started to notice the small ways that this would show up for me. For example, when I would make a mistake like spilling something on the floor, my inner dialogue could go something like this, “You’re so stupid! What were you thinking? Idiot!!”

The other night I was cooking with a friend and as I went to put the heavy dish of lasagne into the oven I noticed a cookie sheet that had been stored inside. Drat! I thought, picked it up with my free hand and searched for a place to put this now blazing hot cookie pan down. Since there was no counter space left in the kitchen, I set it down on the living room floor and finished putting the lasagne in. Then I promptly forgot about it.

An hour later I went to retrieve it and noticed something alarming. The pan had melted the carpet into a perfect, cookie sheet size burn mark. I touched it. It was hard, like plastic is hard. I frowned realizing what I had done, but I didn’t go to all of the places where I would normally go. In my mind was a calmer sense of, ah well, that sure is a bummer, isn’t it? Not the smartest thing I’ve ever done, but what are you gonna do?

Where normally I would have crafted a better story for my husband, my landlord, my friends who have been gasping at the sight of it, I have been telling the truth in a really uncomplicated way. “Yeah, I put a hot cookie sheet on the floor. Who knew carpet was made of plastic?”

I’m noticing that the truth is not so bad. What’s hard are the untruths we tell ourselves every day. You are stupid, you are incompetent, you are not enough…. That is the painful stuff.

I’m so glad I am working with these lessons now, so that Ben might not have to witness me berate myself over and over and might have more compassion for himself and his own foibles. It really is possible to become more shame resilient, and for me it began with simply having the language for shame. This is one of the many gifts of Brene’s work.

Update: Since I posted this piece a few years ago, Brene has published another incredible book, The Gifts of Imperfection. This book will change you in the most profound ways!

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3 Comments

  1. mairi

    What an inspiring way to view life and your/my/our place in it! What an inspiring way to dance through life 🙂

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  2. Moni

    I am glad I found this blog through an interview on Tea and Cookies Blog. Liked the part about truth and untruths. I had a bit more difficult times recently and this is what I figured out too as a conclusion.

    If I am brave enough to believe that good things can happen to me, appreciate the time what I can spend with my friends and family and get inspired by the time spent together..Then after a while I get my balance back too and will be able to discover new opportunities much better.

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  3. Kimba

    I’m actually in the middle of reading this book right now, thanks to you originally. It’s so good!

    Reply

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