It’s been an intense season around here -separation, mediation, grief over a beloved friend -there’s a lot stirring in this tender little heart.
I had a coaching session yesterday that helped me understand my world a bit better. I came to the session feeling profoundly triggered – aware of my separateness, fear/grief that I’m in this life thing alone and watching myself cling to external things for safety.
She asked me to repeat these words: I feel safe because… and fill in the blank.
And then again: I feel safe because… over and over.
I started: “I feel safe because I am in a healthy body. I feel safe because I am sitting on a squishy couch. I feel safe because I have wonderful friends. I feel safe because I am loved.”
And then the tears started to come and my body began to shake with sobs: I feel safe because I am eternal…
I stopped. I felt dizzy. My heart ached.
“That one made me cry…” my voice cracked.
“That’s because you just landed on the thing that’s the most true of all,” she said. “You are safe because you are eternal.”
And we sat there and let that land.
And more tears poured down my face.
And then I started laughing.
And then she started laughing.
“So what now?” she asked.
And my heart suddenly felt light. Lighter than it’s been in a long time.
And I said, “I’m safe because I’m eternal! If that’s true, then let’s have some fun!”
And it doesn’t take away what feels hard. Or complicated.
I still need to show up for my life and do the work.
I still need to find a new home for me and my boys. (If you have any leads on rentals in Berkeley, let me know!)
I still need to pay taxes.
I still need to move through the grief.
But there was a buoyancy that found me in that moment, a wisdom that filled me with lightness.
Then she asked, “When you imagine your best self, your most successful self, your happiest self, what do you see?”
And immediately my creative work came to mind. My artist heart. The place where I find so much joy – where it’s easy for me to find flow. When I take in the beauty + wonder of the world I feel connected again. Like I belong here. And it always feels better when we do it together.
Would you like to step into some beauty + wonder- seeking with me?
Superhero Photo begins May 16th, 2016: $99 Bring a friend for free!
My original photo course! It will transform the way you take photos + the way you see the world.
Cultivating Wonder begins May 9th, 2016: Pay what you can!
Here’s what just a couple people have said about the course:
I am loving the class! I feel like I have been walking around with this special secret super power, and while everyone else is trudging through shopping and other madness, I am lucky enough to witness the beauty and wow of the simple everyday moments.
I feel as though having the assignments has served as a tuning fork in my life. I’ve been more present to enjoy the magic and wonder of life. My sense of creativity seems to be growing inside.
I haven’t made them in years! But I have a tiny stash available for a few color-lovin peeps. You can find them here. Once they’re gone, they’re gone! Please order today so I can get it out to you before I leave for Bali.
Been thinking about hosting a Storybowl?
I created a Storybowl How-To Kit! It might be the best thing you do this year…
These events are full of connection, joy and healing laughter. Your friends will love you for it.
The Great Jane Retreat
I will be teaching in Ojai May 20-22nd with a luminous crew of other mama-preneurs who want to bring more aliveness into their world. One of my she-ros Amanda Cadenet (from The Conversation) will be giving the keynote!
On the Superhero Blog
My favorite sound It might surprise you!
Francis Weller on grief + anger (Life-changing talk. I’ve watched it a dozen times)
Follow me in Bali!
Bali has been on my Mondo Beyondo list for years. If you want a little vicarious adventure, follow me on Instagram and Facebook! It will surely be a lot of color collecting, monkey spotting + other joys. (My dream inside the dream is to swim with sea turtles. Keep your fingers crossed!)
P.S. I love having you in my world. And the more the merrier.
For the above courses, you are invited to bring a friend for free.
Just send me their email address when you purchase!
Too I hope you feel safe because you are an incredible shining light. I mean seriously – who could stay afraid while emitting such pure LIGHT?
When life overwhelms (and lordy I know it sometimes does) close your eyes, breathe, and visualize yourself as BRIGHT as the mantle on a Coleman lantern. Breathe it in and then turn it up! That’s YOU!